overwhelmed...

Some days are harder than others... I'm not gonna lie.

Today we finally had our feedback appointment at the Children's Autism Center. This is where they confirm to you over and over again that your son has Autism, at least that's what it felt like to me. They present a graph, showing that your son's development is way below normal. Although, the did tell us that he does have some promising attributes. They said that we caught this early and the therapies that we have today really help. They cannot tell us the outcome of these therapies...they just don't know. Every case is different. He will have autism his whole life, but God knows the outcome! Whatever that outcome may be, it will be His perfect plan, and it will be for His Glory!

Sometimes, its hard to think on these things! Today, being one of them. Its o.k. to question God, I certainly wouldn't be the first! He wants us to have a constant dialect with Him. He wants us to tell Him our frustrations and worries. Its when we cease talking to Him that the problems arise. So, today I am thankful for God's never ending love. This gives me peace.

Its been a year...a year of unimaginable challenges...

Its been a little over a year since I last blogged, and what a difference a year makes! I don't really even know where to begin, but God is going to give me the words.

My last post was January 2011 and I was recovering nicely from my Pituitary surgery and cushing's disease. I am fully healed and back to normal! Praise the Lord!
Little did I know my next challenge was right around the corner. The Lord has His plans for my life and He unveiled them in 2011.

My son Dash turned 3 on October 30, 2011, and we had some concerns about his development.
Our concerns were mainly his speech...he wasn't talking yet, or putting two words together. I started noticing things weren't quite right in the summer of 2011 when he was about 2 and a half. He wasn't doing things that "normal" 2 year olds do. He seemed a little more grumpy and fussy for a 2 year old. He didn't like loud noises, and he didn't play normally with toys (no imaginative play). He also did not like going to the playground, where other kids were playing. He didn't like swings or going down slides. He definitely did not like the play area at the mall. He did like the pool, but if the kids got to rowdy, he became scared. We had a couple of family members come to us with their concerns, but I think we were in denial, or thought he would just grow out if it. In September of 2011 I went to the pediatrician to get referrals for the Children's Autism Center located in Westerville. In December of 2011 we had our initial appointment, and they determined that he needed to have a full evaluation, so we were scheduled for January of 2012. In January, Dash had two, 3 hour each, appointments. At the end of the first appointment they stated that he does have Autism. Wow! I knew he had it, but I don't know if I let it fully sink in till I heard the word.

What now? Autism. Never would have thought in a million years, that I would have a son with Autism. But, the Lord knew. This is His plan, not mine.

John 9
Read it. It has given me insight and encouragement!
It is the story of Jesus and the blind man! The Lord heals him from a lifetime of blindness! The disciples ask, what did his parents do to make their son blind. Jesus replies, "nothing, It is for my Glory!"
When I get discouraged and can't understand what goes on in my son's head, my Lord knows! It is for His Glory that he has autism! He is special, and the Lord loves him even more than I love him, which truly blows my mind!

Well, this is only the beginning! I look forward to sharing...for His Glory!

I'd better go, I've been on here long enough! Just wanna let you know, Dash, currently has stripped down to only his diaper, and is chewing on his sock, while watching Blue's Clues, and pestering the cat! Oh Dear!