"Praise Him"

What day is it? Oh yeah, Wednesday, speech therapy day and preschool. My days just seem to run together now! Managing Dash's speech, occupational, and physical therapy is challenging in and of itself, but now we have preschool! Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining, but geesh, i'm worn out! Most days I'm praying "Dear Lord give me energy"!

Since my last blog, Dash has started preschool! He was accepted into the R.E.A.C.H program with the Columbus City Schools! It is a preschool program for kids with autism, every child in the program has autism. The class has about 6 to 7 kids with 2 teachers. He also gets physical, occupational, and speech therapy! We are so happy for this program! A blessing from God! Dash has also started riding the bus, and let me tell you, he loves it!!!! Every day around 12:30 he goes to the door and waits excitedly because he knows the bus is coming! I'm soooo thankful for that, because it makes my job a little easier, more peace of mind!

Its funny how the Lord makes Himself known! Just the other day, I was really discouraged, and sad about Dash's situation. I know I'm still having a hard time accepting the fact that he has autism. I have good days and I have hard days. Yesterday, I was having one of those hard days, but the Lord revealed Himself to me! In the form of a license plate! As I was driving down the highway, a car in the lane to my left sped past! I looked down for a moment and saw the license plate, and it simply said "Praise Him". I thought to myself, "Wow"! God is right here with me! He knows what I'm going through! We, as children of Christ, need to look for, and look toward Him in all of life, because He has message for us! It's simple. Praise Him. I will never forget get that day when He picked me up from the depths of despair. Praise Him for your life, your blessings!

My Brain hurts and my Heart is about to explode...

One in every 75 boys are born today with Autism. Staggering numbers, and yet, they just seem to keep rising. There is no known cause...yet. I have hope though... that in my lifetime they will find a cause, but until then I will trust in the Creator.

Well, its been a busy week between occupational therapy, and speech therapy, I've been applying for all and any financial aide out there! It really does make my brain hurt! There is so much out there, and its all so confusing! I think its my brain is extra foggy because my heart hurts. It hurts for my beautiful boy. I go back and forth thinking I can be strong, I must be strong, I must trust the Lord, and feeling as if I could crumple to the ground in a heap. Now, I don't mean to be over dramatic here, but I must be honest. I have really been encouraged by the Holy Spirit this week, but I must be willing to listen! Sometimes I don't feel like listening, but He is still there, whispering my name! Its amazing to see how my Creator communicates right to my heart. I read this verse today, and it was what I needed to hear :

"Then (Job) fell to the ground in worship and said: "Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised." Job 1:20-21

I read this beautiful passage by Joni Eareckson Tada that followed:

"God screens the trials that come to each of us- allowing only those that accomplish His plan, because he takes no joy in human agony (Lamentations 3:33) These trials are not evenly distributed from person to person. This can discourage us, for we are only able to see through a glass darkly; we are not privy to his reasons. But we can take heart that every trial is ordained by God from eternity past, custom made for each believer's eternal good, even when it doesn't seem like it. Nothing happens by accident...not even tragedy..."

Thank you Lord for telling me exactly what I needed to hear today...and forever!